The Rusty Combine
The steps of being a self-defeating person are similar to masochism. One psychological, another mental, as if no one is watching and yet, said person is always observing internally while projecting. A forcefield outward or an object inward. Little can deter their thought process. What was once objective consideration is now corrupted and unfair. Specifically, to themselves and how any situation needs to unevenly disperse weight to their disadvantage. This is not out of goodwill or great compassion. If any, such a ratio exists out of coincidence. Though it may seem as if they're shouldering a burden, this is consequential by design. Intended to overwhelm themselves. Not of generosity to anyone externally, but to mimic the internal pressure felt within. Intensification helps play out the manifestation of poor self-worth. Optimism is a fleeting charade they use. Dealing three-card Monty and keeping success out of the reach with dealer and player being one and the same.